I am the goalkeeper

H used a goalkeeper analogy today. That's a new one. But it made a lot of sense.

Nobody gets to be a good goalkeeper without having to first let through many, many, balls into the goal. You practise, you get better. Sometimes, your mistakes - those balls that you let through, come at a time when it counts. That all important game. Huge audience. All bearing witness to your moment of failure. Your supporters disappointed in you. Your enemies cheering (jeering?).
It happens.

A goalkeeper dusts himself off, gets up, blocks out the crowd, and keeps his eyes on the ball. Next time, he saves it. If he doesn't, he gets right back up again, keeps his eyes on the ball.

You'll get better. You just need to get back on your feet.

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I've been okay for a few days now. So glad that whole drama is over. Just needed to ride it out, go through the motions.
Next week, off to Bangkok for a month.